I invite you to join me as I take a trip down memory lane. One day while leaving the office after such an eventful day, I had a meltdown. It was complete with the ugly cry. I began thinking about my job and my relationships and I completely lost it. I felt as though I might not be good enough, that I didn’t deserve the things I had, that my ideas wouldn’t work and that I would one day embarrass myself in front of friends and coworkers. I mean here I am writing blog posts telling you to go for it, to think positively and all other things rainbows and butterflies meanwhile I’m over here scared as shit.
Was I suffering from imposter syndrome? I don’t know. What I do know is that life actually has been pretty good for me. I have really seen God move in my life and show me some things that I have been ultimately praying for to come to fruition. For example, I was just awarded one of the highest awards for my business sector. It was goal of mine that I have had for quite some time. What I learned from winning and also reflecting is that faith is truly the key to any type of success and having fear will only make you question your self-worth. The road is not easy, but it is well worth it. I’m still pinching myself about the award and internally say “Yasss sis you deserved this moment and many more.”
I recently saw a video where the speaker said if you’re invited to the room, then you belong in the room and that if you’re in the room, then there is a seat at the table for you. Honeeeyyyyyy!!! I have to do better. I have to learn to not give power to doubt and that operating in fear will leave me a mess. I have to look at mistakes as learning experiences. The biggest thing I have to do is have confidence in myself. I deserve everything that I have. I deserve everything that I want. Let’s see if I can get out of my own way and receive all that is for me. Stay tuned!
*Clearly I love Auntie Oprah*